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Today the not knowing really got to me and I had a meltdown. The uncertainty just got the best of me. Luckily my husband called when I started to really go down hill and he said he was going to call our agency. He was able to get a hold of our social worker and she told him that they had gotten a response from Korea. Nothing had really changed other than we found out a little bit more info on what is really going on. My fear these last two weeks was for Cameron and that his birthmother may be acting on feelings of guilt and not in his best interest. But today we found out that the parents are going through counseling to work some things out and that they intend to get married and keep their son. While this made me sad it also made me so happy. I just want him to be safe and happy and in a secure, stable environment. It made me feel as though they were serious and did want what was best for him. Enough to get help and work things out and do what was right for their son. This was what I had prayed for and God answered my prayers. So even though there still is not a final decision, we will now wait for the next female referral that comes into our agency. This could be tomorrow or a month from now. If a final decision has not been made by the time the referral comes in, our agency will contact the Korean agency and let them know that there is another referral for us and that we will be taking the new referral if the parents have not made a final decision. While I am sad that he will most likely not be ours, I am overjoyed that we will finally be getting our daughter that we originally started the process for 2 years ago. It's so amazing the way God works. If someone would have told me that I would have had to go through all this to get my daughter I would have laughed hysterically. But when I think about it, I now am beginning to see his plan for us and I am so excited to see what's coming next. Please keep Cameron and his parents in your prayers.