Today has not been a good day for me. I am feeling very emotional and impatient today and I can't seem to find my peace that I usually have. I think it all started with my coffee mug this morning. I have 2 favorite coffee mugs, one has pictures of Bee and the other has pictures of Cameron. I must have put a knife in the sink with my Cameron mug because there was a scratch down the middle of one of the pictures. I at first thought no big deal and actually caught myself saying, "I can just order another one", then I realized what I said and just sighed. I can't just order another one because he is not my baby anymore. What would be the purpose? It was like a big reality check that it has been almost 15 months since we received Cameron's referral and we still do not have a baby home. And to make matters worse we don't know when this will end. I could guess and say June, but it's just a guess. No one is giving out information about anything at our agency. I would love to hear that someone else got their EP or that there was some movement at least. And I still haven't heard back from Immigration regarding our number mixup. So I am just having a really bad day and I am desperately in need of some positive inspirational thinking. If someone has a scripture for me , please send it to me. Whenever I am sad I eat chocolate and LOTS of it!! So my list today for waiting Wednesday is all about chocolate.
10 chocolate things I will eat over the next couple of months( although I might make them all this week!)
1. Devil's food chocolate cake with chocolate sour cream icing
2. chocolate chocolate chip cookies
3. chocolate molten cake
4. chocolate peanut butter ice cream
5. chocolate dream dessert at Carabba's
6. cannolli covered in chocolate and pistachios
7. chocolate croissant from Whole Foods
8. chocolate milk shake from haggen daas
9. chocolate flavored coffee from Godiva
10. dark chocolate caramel from Godiva
8 comments:
Oh dear, what a sad way to start the morning. Sigh. I feel very similar in that our agency has not said anything official about the longer EP wait times in Korea, but of course we know the scoop from other people adopting from Eastern. Our social worker is at a conference this week with a bunch of other social workers, some of which work with Korea. She said she'd let us know what she learns about the EP situation when she's back on Monday. I will be sure to share anything I learn with you all.
PS - If we're talking chocolate, my favorite is Fran's Chocolate (local here in Seattle) - the dark chocolate caramels with sea salt on top. Yum!
Kara,
I are chocolate for you today. I can not begin to imagine how you must be feeling. Hang in there. I know that I started to get really impatient about this time in our wait too. I know that at this point it will not make it any easier but I promise when Miss Bee is placed your arms all the waiting and hurt will disappear.
Big, big hugs to you. I'm so sorry.
I can *so* relate to the mug incident. Something that seems so small has such a huge emotional impact... I get it. Hoping for answers for you guys super-soon!
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."--- Philippians 4: 6-7
I wrote my post before I read yours, so it seems we both needed some peace today! Always remember God is in control. Let go and let God!!! And def have some chocolate :)
I'm so sorry, Kara. The uncertainty & lack of information is the most difficult part of the wait. I hope you hear from immigration soon so you can at least eliminate that uncertainty. You better believe that I will be eating a ton of chocolate for you until you get your TC. My favorite is chocolate peanut butter ice cream.
I am so sorry Kara. I hate the bad days, they are so hard to climb out of sometimes. Thinking of you, always.
When you get your little Bee home, the bad days will be fewer and far between.
I can NOT believe it's been 8 weeks since the first Waiting Wed. post! Here's to many more posts and with each one we get closer to our girls!
Girl, I'm so praying for you. be strong in the lord and wait. easy words to type,but hard to cary out. she'll be in your arms soon.
Kara, I am sending big hugs your way. I am so sorry the wait has gotten to you today. You are such an inspiration to me. You've been through so much, and handled it with such strength and grace. You deserve to have some bad days. Even though it may not seem like it, Bee will be in your arms. Until then, I will continue to pray that things keep moving for you. Hang in there.
kara
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