6months 1 week and 1 day

That's how long we have been waiting for our child. It seems endless. I don't even wake up anticipating anything anymore. I think I have finally given up being impatient. I don't have any pictures to look at anymore. Next Thursday is his first birthday and it makes me very sad that he won't be here. Even though I would be so excited to get a call saying that he was ours, I would be very angry that after all this she kept him from being with his new family on such a special day. I can't imagine what he is going through right now. Yes I know he is just a baby, but he has been with his foster mother for almost a year and she has been showing him our pictures telling him that we are his mommy and daddy. And now he has probably met with the birth parents and they are telling him that they are mommy and daddy. He's probably so confused. I just want to hold him . Please God, let this confusing time end for him soon. I just want him to feel secure and loved.